Chapter 4
Arguments & Decisions
When Johnny woke up all stiff the next morning from sleeping on the sofa, he thought to himself, shower, and tell Carlos I’m out of this mess and leave.
Shortly later Carlos arrived and they went into the study to talk.
When I woke up the next morning, I wondered if Johnny worked or if I would normally cook him some breakfast in the mornings. As I got up I could hear voice’s downstairs, Johnny must be already up I thought to myself, I headed downstairs. To my surprise Johnny and Carlos my father, seemed to be having a heated discussion, I moved into the door way so they could see me.
“Morning” I said to them.
“Good morning pumpkin, I have your allowance here, 2 weeks worth like you asked me for.”
“I did” I said puzzled.
“Yes angel, you said you and Johnny were going shopping and then lunch.”
Johnny gave Carlos a look that could kill.
“Oh right, when did I say that?” I asked.
“Last week sweetheart” Carlos replied.
“I’m sorry Anya, I don’t think I can do today, I have a busy day.” Johnny said turning around to look at me.
“Anya!” Johnny yelled looking uncomfortable.
“What? What is it?” I said patting my hair and feeling my face for zits.
Johnny quickly turned his back to me he looked like he was blushing.
“Your…Your not dressed.” he said nervously.
“Oh” I said looking down at myself, I had my Bra and pants on. I thought he’d be used to seeing me in the mornings.
Carlos chuckled.
I didn’t see what was so amusing, I went upstairs and got into the shower. After I got dressed, I went back downstairs and Johnny was still talking to my father, they must have heard me because they stopped talking suddenly.
“So what are you doing today Carlos?” I asked.
“Carlos?” My father replied with a look of upset on his face.
“You’ve always called me Daddy or Papa, Anyanka.”
“Oh I’m sorry, this is still very weird for me, and I didn’t mean to upset you Papa.”
“I’m sorry Anyanka, it’s hard for all of us, don’t worry pumpkin, things will get easier.” he replied.
“Today my angel, I am going to attend several boring meetings and hopefully go home and relax.”
“And your working today Johnny?” I asked him.
Carlos cleared his throat.
“Ahem, no he is going with you shopping like you both planned last week, I’m giving him time off since you need him right now.” Carlos sounded like he was giving an order.
“No it’s ok if Johnny has a lot to do I can just stay home.”
“Nonsense, you’ve been so excited about this shopping trip, he’s always working to hard, you said you were going to cut his rags up and get him a makeover.” Carlos said smarmily looking over to Johnny.
“Anya, can I have a moment with Carlos alone please?” Johnny asked looking at Carlos with anger in his eyes.
“Sure, I’ll go get some breakfast, I’ll be in the kitchen.” I replied.
“What the hell is your game Carlos, I told you earlier, no more of this pretending from me.” Johnny snapped.
“You agreed Johnny” He spat back at him.
“No, that’s the thing, I agreed to get your daughter as long as no-one got hurt.”
“Who’s hurting Johnny? Carlos asked smugly.”
“Anya will be when she finds out I’m not who she’s been told I am.”
“ Johnny I really don’t know what your problem is, just let her take you shopping and have lunch.”
“Then what Carlos? What about when she wants to….you know….be more serious?”
“Did you’re mommy not give you the talk of the bird’s & bee’s Johnny?” Carlos said mockingly.
“Damn it Carlos! You know exactly what I mean!”
Carlos looked down at his watch.
“Look at the time, I have to be in a meeting, I’m sure you’ll figure something out Johnny, in the mean time enjoy your makeover and Lunch, you can take the car that’s in the garage.” Carlos winked and left.
I headed back to the study, remembering I’d not offered anyone else breakfast, I heard a loud thud and a kind of growl noise. Johnny had hit his fists down on the desk and he looked really pissed off.
“Johnny?” I approached him.
He stood up straight, looking angry and upset.
“What’s happened?”
“It’s nothing, let’s just go downtown.”
“Did Car..I mean Papa upset you?”
“You could say that, don’t worry Anya, and let’s just go ok.” He snapped.
“We don‘t have to go,” I said sheepishly.
“I’m sorry, it’s not your fault. Let‘s just go shopping.”
We drove downtown, in silence.
“So where do you want to go?” Johnny asked me once we got into town.
“I don’t know what did we have planned?”
“To make over me, right”
“Really?” But I like what you’re wearing”
He smiled at me.
“Well lets just go looking round some shops, you might find something for yourself. I also could do with a hair cut.” He said.
We went to the local salon first, the stylist’s couldn’t wait to get their hands on Johnny, but I told them he has to pick his own clothes and cut. I got myself a couple of outfits too.
Are you hungry? Johnny asked me as we left the Salon.
“Yeah I only had a juice earlier, I was coming to ask you if you wanted breakfast when I came back to the study”
“Let’s put our bags in the boot of the car and then we’ll go get some food, what do you fancy?”
“Sorry?”
“To eat, what do you want to eat?”
“Oh, I don’t know surprise me.” I smiled.
As our table was cleared, I looked at Johnny and said,
“Do you and Papa argue often?”
“What?” He said nearly choking on his pasta.
I looked down, “I heard you both arguing when I woke up, and then again when you asked me to go to the kitchen.”
“What did you hear?” he asked looking worried.
“Just loud voices when I woke and then, you shouting when I was in the kitchen.”
“Did you hear what we were shouting about?” He looked angry again.
“I’m not a kid Johnny, I don’t eavesdrop, and you asked me to leave the room so I stayed out the way.” I snapped at him.
“Ok, I’m sorry.” He said.
“So do you?” I asked again.
“Yeah…..No…..Sometimes I guess.” He replied.
“You mean more so since….Since I lost my memory?” I bit down on my bottom lip.
“It’s not your fault Anya”
“I know, I just….Oh I don’t know. My eyes glazed and red hot tears burned my eyes.
He got out of his seat and pulled me into an embrace.
“What did I say to you last night? I hate to see you cry….”
“No you didn’t” I said, tears rolling down my cheek.
“Huh?”
“You didn’t say that, you said you hate to see girls cry.”
“Well it’s the same thing isn‘t it?”
“I guess.” I pulled away from him.
“Maybe we should go home, I’m kinda tired.” I turned to walk away.
“Anya….” Johnny said.
“Yeah?”
“I’m sorry.” He clenched his hands like his palms were sweating.
I looked into his eyes. “For what?” I said.
“I…Well…Um, I want to tell you, well I mean Carlos your Papa he.”
“What? Is something wrong Johnny?”
“Yes…..No, he just makes me do things I don’t want to do, with work ya know, so we end up arguing about it.” He sighed.
“Well, I’m sure all bosses are pushy right?” I smiled.
“Yeah I suppose”
“Tell you what, I’ll tell him to go easier on you, ok?” I grinned at him.
Ha-ha, no it’s fine I’m sure we will work something out.
“Come on, let’s go home.”
As I walked around the house, I noticed there were no photo’s hanging up, any family pictures anything of me and Johnny, I started looking through draws and rummaging about, Johnny came into the bedroom.
“Hey I…..urm what are you doing?” He asked.
“Johnny, you startled me.” I said gasping.
“What are you doing Anyanka?” He repeated.
“I’m looking for memorabilia.”
“Why?”
“I thought it might help me get my memory back, you know looking back.”
“Well you might as well stop looking, you won’t find anything.” He snapped.
“ Johnny, I’ve looked all round the walls in this house, there are no photo’s anywhere.” I snapped back at him.
“Hey watch your tone.”
Watch my tone? That’s all you have to say? Do you know what I’m going through right now., or how scary it is? Why isn’t there any photo’s Johnny? I screamed at him.
“Prom, picnic’s, family?” I continued.
“Why don’t you ask Daddy, I’m done with this, I’m out of here! He shouted.
Johnny stormed out and I heard him slam the front door, and screech off in his car, I fell to the floor in tears.
I didn’t know what to do I‘d been laid on the floor crying for a while, I shouldn’t have shouted at him, it wasn’t his fault. I decided to call my father.
“Daddy?”
“Hey pumpkin, did you and Johnny have a nice day?”
“Sort of…..No.” I burst into tears again.
“Anya, what’s happened, are you ok?”
“No” I said sobbing down the phone.
“Where are you?”
“At home.”
“Ok I’m coming over, just hang on sweetheart.”
Carlos arrived 15 minutes later, he rushed through the door, shouting my name.
“Anyanka, what’s happened? Where’s Johnny?”
“I don’t know he left, we had a row.” I sobbed.
“What do you mean left, what did you row about?”
“I was going through all the draws looking for memorabilia, there’s no photo’s here of my life, or of me and Johnny, I shouted at him asking why I have no photo’s anywhere. He then shouted at me and said I should ask you, and he said he was done with this and he was out of here so he sped off in his car.” I cried so hard.
“Shh sweetheart, it will be ok, you’ve not been here long, and all your pictures are gone because of a house fire, Johnny finds it hard to deal with”
“Well why couldn’t Johnny tell me that? Instead of shouting at me to ask you? Now’s he’s left me and I’m alone in my house that I don’t know and…” I was crying so much I thought I was gonna be sick.
“Come on sweetheart, you can take new pictures and I’m sure Johnny will be back he’s probably gone to let steam off.”
“I don’t blame him for leaving, this is so hard not knowing and we’ve been together for years and I don’t know him, he must hate me, he’s…he’s better off without me.”
“He’ll come back Anaya I promise.”
“How do you know?”
“Because I know Johnny, just give him some time ok, like you said it’s hard for us all.”
“Ok, let me know if you hear from him.”
“Ok sweetheart do you want me to stay?”
“No, I’ll call you later.”
Johnny zoomed around downtown and then finally pulled over down at the beach. He stood staring out at the sea.
“What the hell did you do this time Johnny” he said to himself
"You’ve really screwed up this time, way to go." He chastised himself.
His cell phone started ringing, he looked at the caller ID, Carlos.
“What” Johnny said answering.
“Where are you?” Carlos asked.
“What do you want Carlos?”
“You made my daughter cry, what’s your game?”
“MY GAME? This is all your doing Carlos, I’m through will this, I told her I’m done.”
“Funny that, because someone was in the study this morning complaining about Anyanka getting hurt, and the funny thing is he looked just like you. But it couldn’t of been because she‘s at home crying for you.”
“Well its better I get out now before she does remember.”
“I don’t think so” a voice said from behind him.
Johnny quickly turned around.
“Carlos”
“Ha-ha, trackers are a good investment.”
“You son of a….”
“Now now Johnny, respect your father in law”
“You’re not my father in Law” Johnny snapped.
“Listen to me Johnny, I made a promise to my daughter and you’re not going to make me a bad father are you?”
“I don’t need to do anything, your doing a good job of it on your own.”
“Ah yes Johnny, but I didn’t do this on my own did I? Who was it that tracked my daughter down and learned about her for 4 months and bought her too me?”
Johnny lowered his head in shame.
“Now you’re going to go back to the house and apologise to my daughter, and you’re going to stay with her, do you understand?”
“No I’m not Carlos, I don‘t want any part in this I‘m not going to hurt Anya anymore than I already have.” Johnny said nervously.
“You stupid boy, what’s the matter with you, you can have anything you want while your with her, all expenses paid remember.” Carlos Snapped.
“I said NO Carlos” Johnny gulped.
“She asked me today if we as in me and you argue a lot as she heard us shouting, she said she didn’t hear anything said, so I told her we disagree over work, she offered to tell you to lighten up on me, How do you think that makes me feel Carlos? Anya will do anything for me and I sit by living a lie with dirty money.” Johnny had tears in his eyes.
“Are you crying Johnny?” Carlos Smirked.
“Oh my goodness, I see what’s going on here, you’re falling for her, you’ve been following her and then living with her for 4 months, sat by her bedside while she slept in hospital. Don’t you see Johnny? You can make this work, this is brilliant! Carlos chuckled.
“No Carlos, it isn’t brilliant, she hated me when I lived there, and she’s gonna hate me even more when she finds out the truth. I mean it I’m out.”
“No-one is ever out Johnny when they’ve been in, it’s in or dead!”
“Then I guess I’m dead.”
“I’m willing to give you a second chance Johnny, I like you, you’d be good for my daughter, and if you don’t look after her you’ll be dead and I’ll be forced to set her up with Ricky or Joel so I can keep her.”
Thoughts ran through Johnny’s head, I’m a dead man, Ricky or Joel with Anya……But the lies, she’ll hate me if she finds out, I don’t want to loose her I don’t want to lie to her.
“I’m not lying anymore Carlos”
“What do you mean?”
“If I stay, we tell her she was bought here for a better life. She needs the truth, I never should have gone along with this plan Carlos, and we should have done what I said before we should have gone to her and told her she can live with you.”
“Johnny what’s happened to you? You used to be my toughest man.” Carlos chuckled.
“I’m not going to live your lies Carlos.”
“What about when she asks why you lied to her.”
Johnny lowered his head in shame.
“Come on Johnny, just do what you said, play the boyfriend, take it easy she will fall for you because she thinks she is already supposed to love you.”
“You have to tell her she grew up with her mother and you bought her to live with you for a better life.” Johnny sighed.
“Ok, but in time, I’ll tell her but give me a few weeks to sort things.”
“Why should I believe you Carlos.”
Because I love my daughter and I want her to be happy, she is hurting so much now Johnny she wants you.
Carlos your believing your own lies here, she doesn’t want me she doesn’t even know me, she wants her memory back.
“She will want you Johnny just give her time, I know you want its written all over you, so have her. I can’t loose her again Johnny, please don’t do this to me.” Carlos pleaded.
“I don’t know, I don’t think I can do this Carlos, I….I think its better this way, just let me go, you even said before your plans never fail, you’ll figure something out.”
“No Johnny, if you don’t go back then it’s all over for you, am I clear?”
“Yeah you’re clear, but I’m not lying anymore.” Johnny said angrily.
Arguments & Decisions
When Johnny woke up all stiff the next morning from sleeping on the sofa, he thought to himself, shower, and tell Carlos I’m out of this mess and leave.
Shortly later Carlos arrived and they went into the study to talk.
When I woke up the next morning, I wondered if Johnny worked or if I would normally cook him some breakfast in the mornings. As I got up I could hear voice’s downstairs, Johnny must be already up I thought to myself, I headed downstairs. To my surprise Johnny and Carlos my father, seemed to be having a heated discussion, I moved into the door way so they could see me.
“Morning” I said to them.
“Good morning pumpkin, I have your allowance here, 2 weeks worth like you asked me for.”
“I did” I said puzzled.
“Yes angel, you said you and Johnny were going shopping and then lunch.”
Johnny gave Carlos a look that could kill.
“Oh right, when did I say that?” I asked.
“Last week sweetheart” Carlos replied.
“I’m sorry Anya, I don’t think I can do today, I have a busy day.” Johnny said turning around to look at me.
“Anya!” Johnny yelled looking uncomfortable.
“What? What is it?” I said patting my hair and feeling my face for zits.
Johnny quickly turned his back to me he looked like he was blushing.
“Your…Your not dressed.” he said nervously.
“Oh” I said looking down at myself, I had my Bra and pants on. I thought he’d be used to seeing me in the mornings.
Carlos chuckled.
I didn’t see what was so amusing, I went upstairs and got into the shower. After I got dressed, I went back downstairs and Johnny was still talking to my father, they must have heard me because they stopped talking suddenly.
“So what are you doing today Carlos?” I asked.
“Carlos?” My father replied with a look of upset on his face.
“You’ve always called me Daddy or Papa, Anyanka.”
“Oh I’m sorry, this is still very weird for me, and I didn’t mean to upset you Papa.”
“I’m sorry Anyanka, it’s hard for all of us, don’t worry pumpkin, things will get easier.” he replied.
“Today my angel, I am going to attend several boring meetings and hopefully go home and relax.”
“And your working today Johnny?” I asked him.
Carlos cleared his throat.
“Ahem, no he is going with you shopping like you both planned last week, I’m giving him time off since you need him right now.” Carlos sounded like he was giving an order.
“No it’s ok if Johnny has a lot to do I can just stay home.”
“Nonsense, you’ve been so excited about this shopping trip, he’s always working to hard, you said you were going to cut his rags up and get him a makeover.” Carlos said smarmily looking over to Johnny.
“Anya, can I have a moment with Carlos alone please?” Johnny asked looking at Carlos with anger in his eyes.
“Sure, I’ll go get some breakfast, I’ll be in the kitchen.” I replied.
“What the hell is your game Carlos, I told you earlier, no more of this pretending from me.” Johnny snapped.
“You agreed Johnny” He spat back at him.
“No, that’s the thing, I agreed to get your daughter as long as no-one got hurt.”
“Who’s hurting Johnny? Carlos asked smugly.”
“Anya will be when she finds out I’m not who she’s been told I am.”
“ Johnny I really don’t know what your problem is, just let her take you shopping and have lunch.”
“Then what Carlos? What about when she wants to….you know….be more serious?”
“Did you’re mommy not give you the talk of the bird’s & bee’s Johnny?” Carlos said mockingly.
“Damn it Carlos! You know exactly what I mean!”
Carlos looked down at his watch.
“Look at the time, I have to be in a meeting, I’m sure you’ll figure something out Johnny, in the mean time enjoy your makeover and Lunch, you can take the car that’s in the garage.” Carlos winked and left.
I headed back to the study, remembering I’d not offered anyone else breakfast, I heard a loud thud and a kind of growl noise. Johnny had hit his fists down on the desk and he looked really pissed off.
“Johnny?” I approached him.
He stood up straight, looking angry and upset.
“What’s happened?”
“It’s nothing, let’s just go downtown.”
“Did Car..I mean Papa upset you?”
“You could say that, don’t worry Anya, and let’s just go ok.” He snapped.
“We don‘t have to go,” I said sheepishly.
“I’m sorry, it’s not your fault. Let‘s just go shopping.”
We drove downtown, in silence.
“So where do you want to go?” Johnny asked me once we got into town.
“I don’t know what did we have planned?”
“To make over me, right”
“Really?” But I like what you’re wearing”
He smiled at me.
“Well lets just go looking round some shops, you might find something for yourself. I also could do with a hair cut.” He said.
We went to the local salon first, the stylist’s couldn’t wait to get their hands on Johnny, but I told them he has to pick his own clothes and cut. I got myself a couple of outfits too.
Are you hungry? Johnny asked me as we left the Salon.
“Yeah I only had a juice earlier, I was coming to ask you if you wanted breakfast when I came back to the study”
“Let’s put our bags in the boot of the car and then we’ll go get some food, what do you fancy?”
“Sorry?”
“To eat, what do you want to eat?”
“Oh, I don’t know surprise me.” I smiled.
As our table was cleared, I looked at Johnny and said,
“Do you and Papa argue often?”
“What?” He said nearly choking on his pasta.
I looked down, “I heard you both arguing when I woke up, and then again when you asked me to go to the kitchen.”
“What did you hear?” he asked looking worried.
“Just loud voices when I woke and then, you shouting when I was in the kitchen.”
“Did you hear what we were shouting about?” He looked angry again.
“I’m not a kid Johnny, I don’t eavesdrop, and you asked me to leave the room so I stayed out the way.” I snapped at him.
“Ok, I’m sorry.” He said.
“So do you?” I asked again.
“Yeah…..No…..Sometimes I guess.” He replied.
“You mean more so since….Since I lost my memory?” I bit down on my bottom lip.
“It’s not your fault Anya”
“I know, I just….Oh I don’t know. My eyes glazed and red hot tears burned my eyes.
He got out of his seat and pulled me into an embrace.
“What did I say to you last night? I hate to see you cry….”
“No you didn’t” I said, tears rolling down my cheek.
“Huh?”
“You didn’t say that, you said you hate to see girls cry.”
“Well it’s the same thing isn‘t it?”
“I guess.” I pulled away from him.
“Maybe we should go home, I’m kinda tired.” I turned to walk away.
“Anya….” Johnny said.
“Yeah?”
“I’m sorry.” He clenched his hands like his palms were sweating.
I looked into his eyes. “For what?” I said.
“I…Well…Um, I want to tell you, well I mean Carlos your Papa he.”
“What? Is something wrong Johnny?”
“Yes…..No, he just makes me do things I don’t want to do, with work ya know, so we end up arguing about it.” He sighed.
“Well, I’m sure all bosses are pushy right?” I smiled.
“Yeah I suppose”
“Tell you what, I’ll tell him to go easier on you, ok?” I grinned at him.
Ha-ha, no it’s fine I’m sure we will work something out.
“Come on, let’s go home.”
As I walked around the house, I noticed there were no photo’s hanging up, any family pictures anything of me and Johnny, I started looking through draws and rummaging about, Johnny came into the bedroom.
“Hey I…..urm what are you doing?” He asked.
“Johnny, you startled me.” I said gasping.
“What are you doing Anyanka?” He repeated.
“I’m looking for memorabilia.”
“Why?”
“I thought it might help me get my memory back, you know looking back.”
“Well you might as well stop looking, you won’t find anything.” He snapped.
“ Johnny, I’ve looked all round the walls in this house, there are no photo’s anywhere.” I snapped back at him.
“Hey watch your tone.”
Watch my tone? That’s all you have to say? Do you know what I’m going through right now., or how scary it is? Why isn’t there any photo’s Johnny? I screamed at him.
“Prom, picnic’s, family?” I continued.
“Why don’t you ask Daddy, I’m done with this, I’m out of here! He shouted.
Johnny stormed out and I heard him slam the front door, and screech off in his car, I fell to the floor in tears.
I didn’t know what to do I‘d been laid on the floor crying for a while, I shouldn’t have shouted at him, it wasn’t his fault. I decided to call my father.
“Daddy?”
“Hey pumpkin, did you and Johnny have a nice day?”
“Sort of…..No.” I burst into tears again.
“Anya, what’s happened, are you ok?”
“No” I said sobbing down the phone.
“Where are you?”
“At home.”
“Ok I’m coming over, just hang on sweetheart.”
Carlos arrived 15 minutes later, he rushed through the door, shouting my name.
“Anyanka, what’s happened? Where’s Johnny?”
“I don’t know he left, we had a row.” I sobbed.
“What do you mean left, what did you row about?”
“I was going through all the draws looking for memorabilia, there’s no photo’s here of my life, or of me and Johnny, I shouted at him asking why I have no photo’s anywhere. He then shouted at me and said I should ask you, and he said he was done with this and he was out of here so he sped off in his car.” I cried so hard.
“Shh sweetheart, it will be ok, you’ve not been here long, and all your pictures are gone because of a house fire, Johnny finds it hard to deal with”
“Well why couldn’t Johnny tell me that? Instead of shouting at me to ask you? Now’s he’s left me and I’m alone in my house that I don’t know and…” I was crying so much I thought I was gonna be sick.
“Come on sweetheart, you can take new pictures and I’m sure Johnny will be back he’s probably gone to let steam off.”
“I don’t blame him for leaving, this is so hard not knowing and we’ve been together for years and I don’t know him, he must hate me, he’s…he’s better off without me.”
“He’ll come back Anaya I promise.”
“How do you know?”
“Because I know Johnny, just give him some time ok, like you said it’s hard for us all.”
“Ok, let me know if you hear from him.”
“Ok sweetheart do you want me to stay?”
“No, I’ll call you later.”
Johnny zoomed around downtown and then finally pulled over down at the beach. He stood staring out at the sea.
“What the hell did you do this time Johnny” he said to himself
"You’ve really screwed up this time, way to go." He chastised himself.
His cell phone started ringing, he looked at the caller ID, Carlos.
“What” Johnny said answering.
“Where are you?” Carlos asked.
“What do you want Carlos?”
“You made my daughter cry, what’s your game?”
“MY GAME? This is all your doing Carlos, I’m through will this, I told her I’m done.”
“Funny that, because someone was in the study this morning complaining about Anyanka getting hurt, and the funny thing is he looked just like you. But it couldn’t of been because she‘s at home crying for you.”
“Well its better I get out now before she does remember.”
“I don’t think so” a voice said from behind him.
Johnny quickly turned around.
“Carlos”
“Ha-ha, trackers are a good investment.”
“You son of a….”
“Now now Johnny, respect your father in law”
“You’re not my father in Law” Johnny snapped.
“Listen to me Johnny, I made a promise to my daughter and you’re not going to make me a bad father are you?”
“I don’t need to do anything, your doing a good job of it on your own.”
“Ah yes Johnny, but I didn’t do this on my own did I? Who was it that tracked my daughter down and learned about her for 4 months and bought her too me?”
Johnny lowered his head in shame.
“Now you’re going to go back to the house and apologise to my daughter, and you’re going to stay with her, do you understand?”
“No I’m not Carlos, I don‘t want any part in this I‘m not going to hurt Anya anymore than I already have.” Johnny said nervously.
“You stupid boy, what’s the matter with you, you can have anything you want while your with her, all expenses paid remember.” Carlos Snapped.
“I said NO Carlos” Johnny gulped.
“She asked me today if we as in me and you argue a lot as she heard us shouting, she said she didn’t hear anything said, so I told her we disagree over work, she offered to tell you to lighten up on me, How do you think that makes me feel Carlos? Anya will do anything for me and I sit by living a lie with dirty money.” Johnny had tears in his eyes.
“Are you crying Johnny?” Carlos Smirked.
“Oh my goodness, I see what’s going on here, you’re falling for her, you’ve been following her and then living with her for 4 months, sat by her bedside while she slept in hospital. Don’t you see Johnny? You can make this work, this is brilliant! Carlos chuckled.
“No Carlos, it isn’t brilliant, she hated me when I lived there, and she’s gonna hate me even more when she finds out the truth. I mean it I’m out.”
“No-one is ever out Johnny when they’ve been in, it’s in or dead!”
“Then I guess I’m dead.”
“I’m willing to give you a second chance Johnny, I like you, you’d be good for my daughter, and if you don’t look after her you’ll be dead and I’ll be forced to set her up with Ricky or Joel so I can keep her.”
Thoughts ran through Johnny’s head, I’m a dead man, Ricky or Joel with Anya……But the lies, she’ll hate me if she finds out, I don’t want to loose her I don’t want to lie to her.
“I’m not lying anymore Carlos”
“What do you mean?”
“If I stay, we tell her she was bought here for a better life. She needs the truth, I never should have gone along with this plan Carlos, and we should have done what I said before we should have gone to her and told her she can live with you.”
“Johnny what’s happened to you? You used to be my toughest man.” Carlos chuckled.
“I’m not going to live your lies Carlos.”
“What about when she asks why you lied to her.”
Johnny lowered his head in shame.
“Come on Johnny, just do what you said, play the boyfriend, take it easy she will fall for you because she thinks she is already supposed to love you.”
“You have to tell her she grew up with her mother and you bought her to live with you for a better life.” Johnny sighed.
“Ok, but in time, I’ll tell her but give me a few weeks to sort things.”
“Why should I believe you Carlos.”
Because I love my daughter and I want her to be happy, she is hurting so much now Johnny she wants you.
Carlos your believing your own lies here, she doesn’t want me she doesn’t even know me, she wants her memory back.
“She will want you Johnny just give her time, I know you want its written all over you, so have her. I can’t loose her again Johnny, please don’t do this to me.” Carlos pleaded.
“I don’t know, I don’t think I can do this Carlos, I….I think its better this way, just let me go, you even said before your plans never fail, you’ll figure something out.”
“No Johnny, if you don’t go back then it’s all over for you, am I clear?”
“Yeah you’re clear, but I’m not lying anymore.” Johnny said angrily.
Ooo this is getting intense! Johnny doesn't want to lie to her? He's completely turned around from when he drugged her and threw her around the trailer. He's actually starting to care for Anya. I hope she gets her memory back!!!
ReplyDeleteIn a way i want Anya to get her memory back but another way i don't even though her life right now is based on lie's its certainly alot better than what she had with her Mom. Looks to me like Johnny is going soft, but obviously for the better, he lives and breathes with Anya it would be hard to not let guilt slip in.
DeleteIt looks like Johnny is falling in love with her! I'm glad he's not all bad.
ReplyDeleteI'm sure Johnny will show his true colors over the next few chapters to come. It's funny, comments i read over at other places all hated him and they all feel sorry for him now, i guess the saying could be true don't judge a book by it's cover, or maybe he's a great actor. ;o)
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