Chapter 6 Suprise's & Romance

Work was going well, being a secretary was quite easy, although there were certain area’s I was kept out of, like I wasn’t allowed keys to certain cupboards and there was this room down in the basement the noises that came from they were scary as if someone was being beaten, I’d try to imagine what they were hiding behind the doors. I think that my father runs a sort of loan company, people come and go asking for cash, Johnny would come back from what he called his meetings from down in the basement with bruised knuckles, but when ever I asked questions Johnny would be silent and Papa would just say It’s business pumpkin nothing for you to worry to about. So I just tried to ignore it and did as I was asked.

Over the next few months things got a lot more serious between me and Johnny, he seemed a lot more relaxed, we went on romantic picnics, watched great films at the theatre, and even spent all day Sunday’s in bed. The nightmares still kept coming but I just ignored them and decided to stop mentioning them as it seemed to put a lot of tension on our relationship.
I’d woke from another nightmare, I sat up suddenly.

“Morning baby.” Johnny said to me as he came into the bedroom.

“What time is it?” I said trying to hold my tears in.

“Nearly 7am” He answered. “Are you okay?”

“7am, Johnny Papa gave us a week off come back to bed.”

“ Are you getting up?.”

“Why?”

“Because we have things to do today.”

“It’s my day off.” I whined curling back into the covers. Ignoring his questions.

Johnny climbed onto the bed.

“Well you don’t get a day off from me.” He teased realising I wasn‘t going to answer him.

“That’s not a bad thing,” I said creeping towards him.

“No, no, no.” He said leaning back. “You need to get up.”

“Why?” I said in a playful sulky voice.

“Because we’re going out, now come on get up, there’s some things for you downstairs.”

“Things, what things?”

“Get up and you’ll see now come on.” He said getting up and holding his hand out.

Johnny led me downstairs to the living room, there were several presents.

“What’s this for?” I asked.

“Suprise! Happy Birthday Anya.” He said smiling.

“It’s my birthday?” I said shocked.

“Yeah, 18 today.”

“Oh Johnny I don’t know what to say.” I said excitedly.

“Don’t say anything, just open them.”

I opened my gifts, I got a nice bathroom set, a bottle of wine, make-up, perfume and some spa vouchers for hidden springs, also chocolates and a sexy item for the bedroom.

“Johnny I love them all, you’ve really spoilt me. Thank you so much.” I said giving him a kiss.

“Your welcome, I wasn’t sure what to get really, you have so much already.” He teased.

“There all fantastic, maybe I should try this on?” I said grinning holding up my sexy number.

“Not so fast you little minx, this is just the start of your gifts, go get ready we have to go, oh and pack a bag.”

“A bag, what for?”

“Because I like to see you carrying luggage.” He laughed sarcastically, “Now hurry up.”

I went upstairs and got a case out.

“Johnny?.” I called down the stairs.

“Yeah.”

“What do I need to pack?”

“Just enough stuff to cover you for 3 days.”

“3 Days?”

“Yes now come on we’re going to be late.”


I grabbed some clothes out the drawers stuffed them into my case along with my new underwear.

"I said 3 days not 2 months." Johnny laughed.

“Well I don’t know where we’re going so I packed warm clothes, summer clothes and in-between.” I said sweetly. “And anyway this wouldn’t cover me for 2 months.” I added.

He laughed and shook his head

“Right come on tust take one bag, we’re running behind time.” Johnny hurried me out the door.

“Where’s your case Johnny?”

“My bag is in the boot, he grinned.”

We got into the car and headed out of town.

“So where are we going?” I asked.

“It’s a surprise.”

“Come on Johnny it’s my birthday you have to tell me.”

“No I don’t.” He grinned.

We pulled up at an air port.


“Wait here.” Johnny said.

Johnny spoke to a guy waiting beside a Jet, he laughed and winked nudging the guy and headed back to the car.

“Right come on.” He said to me.

We got onto the jet and I looked to Johnny really scared.

“What’s the matter babe?”

“I’m scared.”

“Of what?” He laughed.

“Flying!”

“Don’t be soft Anya, enjoy it, we have this whole jet to ourselves.”


A couple of hours passed and I’d fallen asleep, a voice came over the speakers, which woke me.
I rubbed my eyes and looked out the window, I could see fields and fields.

“Where are we?”

“France.” Johnny Beamed.

“Wow, really?” I gasped.

I leaned over an squeezed him

“Well I saw you pining over those brochures at work and I thought what a great present it would make.”

“I love you so much Johnny.”

“So all those fears of flying back there was worth it right?”

“Hmm, couldn’t we of got a ferry?” I teased.

He laughed, “I love you too.”

We drove to a nice small patch of open land, Johnny got a tent out the boot and asked me to set up while he went looking for fire wood.

As I was coming out the tent from setting up our bed I said. “The view is gorgeous here Johnny.”

“I know.” He replied staring at my backside.

“Hey,” I laughed. “I might just put you on hold for making me fly.”

“Oh yeah?” He teased pulling me into him.

“Yeah!” I replied in a fun cocky way.

“We’ll see.” He said.

We play fought rolling around in the tent laughing then he climbed on top of me and I playfully resisted, he pinned my arms down and stared at me.

“I love you Anya.”

“I love you too.”

“You are happy aren’t you?” He asked.

“Of course, as long as we are together.”

He smiled and kissed me, he laid gentle kisses on my neck, he teased me with his fingers and then I wrapped my legs around him, I was in heaven, he thrusted me gently and then harder I teased his shoulders with my teeth and he thrusted harder, as we came to our sweet release I dug my nails into him and he let out a breathless gasp.

“You keep that up and I’m not gonna let you leave this tent” He whispered.

“Well it’s a good job we have extra rope, coz if you’re threatening to not let me see France I’ll tie you to a tree and see it alone.” I laughed.

“Oh really?” He said seductively.

“Really.” I answered biting my bottom lip.

And we went for round 2.


I woke up at around 3pm, Johnny was putting firewood into the fire pit.

"What are you doing?" I asked.

"We can’t stay here all day, I’m gonna set this up so it’s ready to light when we get back. Then we can head down to the market place and have a look around."

"Ok I’ll get dressed." I grinned.


The views were beautiful driving down to the market.

We went into a little trinket shop and a huge museum.

Then we went to a nectar making site where I got to make my own nectar, Johnny laughed at me as I was stomping on the fruits. He got talking to some guy about the sites we should visit and got a few maps and directions.

 

 

Then we sat down to eat some gorgeous french cuisine, we both had frog‘s legs.

By this time it was dark, so we headed back to our camp site.


"Are you enjoying your birthday?" Johnny asked as I poked the fire.

"Enjoying it, I’m having a blast I said grinning." Then I looked down sorrowful.

"What’s the matter?" Johnny asked looking concerned.

"It’s nothing." I said trying to shrug off my sudden thought.

!Anya I know you better than that, what’s the matter?"

"I know I said I’d move forward, but this is the best birthday Johnny and I can’t believe how I ever forgot how amazing you are and how much in love we are."

Johnny just lowered his head.

"I’m sorry, I just wish I could remember all our good times."

"No, its ok Anya it’s not fair for me to expect you to just try and forget that you forgot." He said with his head down. "Do you want me to tell you some stuff?" He asked.

"No, we’ll start over like we said before we’ve had a lot of stress and fun over these past 6 months together, they will be our memories."

"Ok if you’re sure." He said unsteadily.


"Yes I am sure, I’m sorry I brought it up again, I love you and you love me and that’s all that should matter."

He smiled.

"Hey, I have an idea." Johnny beamed.

"So do I." I said smiling at him seductively.

"No not that." He said laughing. "When we go down to the market again tomorrow I’ll buy you a camera."

"A camera? But you’ve bought me enough Johnny, the gifts you gave me back home and France its more than enough."

"No I mean it, I’m going to buy you a camera then you can take pictures to look back on you’re life." He said excitedly.

"Our life." I corrected.

He at me smiled nervously.

"Yeah our life."



Over the next few days we visited a few places and bought some souvenirs, Johnny cooked our food over the fire and we watched the stars at night.
Johnny would tell me about constellations, I saw one that looked like a saucepan, he told me it was called the big dipper and was actually a spoon, I'd always the thought the big dipper would look like a rollercoaster, but i didn't tell him that.

 

On our last day we stayed up at our camp and had a picnic, and we danced to the sounds of wildlife, the sun was starting to rise and we had to leave soon to get our flight home.

"Johnny?" I said while he held me in his arms.

"Yeah?" He said quietly.

"This is the best birthday ever. You won’t ever leave me will you? I don’t know what I’d do without you."

"No I won’t leave." He said. "Have I ever told you, you’re the most beautiful girl I’ve ever seen, I’m so lucky to have you." He said softly, rubbing my cheek.

 "No I’m the lucky one, you’re my knight in shining armour, always here for me with your fists at the ready for any punk who tries anything." I stared into his eyes.

 "Promise me you‘ll never leave me Johnny."

"I promise." He said kissing me.

Who You Are Chapter 5 Moving Forward

Chapter 5


Moving Forward

A few months passed by, me and Johnny seemed to have a few awkward moments maybe I was trying to hard to get things back to normal but we both seemed ok. I decided to redecorate the house and move some things around, I painted and played my guitar to pass time while Johnny worked, but after a while I started to get bored at home on my own while Johnny earned the simoleons. I’d been looking for work for several weeks with no luck.
While I was in the study cleaning I came across some paper work. I started reading through them.

Bourjourae Enterprise

Courier required, here at B.E we are seeking someone who can deliver our packages to our clients, this person needs to be reliable, punctual and discreet a full drivers licence is required and your own transport, fuel costs will be covered.
Please drop by our office for an interview.

Bourjourae Enterprise

Secretary required, here at B.E you will be required to file paper work, deal with clients directly and on the phone book appointments and arrange meetings.

There were also several other job vacancies, one called Driver and debt collector. I stood confused for a moment wondering why my father or Johnny hadn’t mentioned these to me. No wonder Johnny was always so busy at work if they are so low on staff. I headed upstairs to get changed and drove into town heading straight for my father’s work place.


When I arrived Johnny was sat behind a desk working on the computer.

 "Do you have an appointment?" He said not even looking at me.

"No, but I’m here to apply for a job."

"Which vacancy?" He sounded so fed up

"Secretary Johnny"

He looked away from his screen

"Anya, what are you doing here?"

"I’m applying for a job."

"Right….urm take a seat, I’ll be right with you."

Johnny got up and rushed into another office.


"Carlos, Anya is here."

"Oh really send her in."

"No I mean she’s here applying for a job she wants to be a secretary." Johnny looked really worried.

"Wonderful, well interview her, we can’t have her thinking we hire people just for showing interest." Carlos chuckled

"Are you serious?" She can’t work here.

"Why not?"

"Because you told her we’re businessman not sharks if she becomes the secretary then don’t you think she’ll know?"

"It’s a business Johnny what you worried about, just interview her."

"No" Johnny snapped.

Carlos picked up his phone and pressed a number

"Ricky, I've got my beautiful daughter here in the office waiting to be interviewed to be our new secretary, will you interview her please Johnny is too scared too. What? Can you date co-workers yes I can’t see why not."

"Carlos" Johnny snapped

"Can you hold one moment Ricky?"

"Yes." Carlos said smugly as he put Ricky on hold.

"Look, I appreciate everything you have done for me Carlos if it wasn’t for you I wouldn’t be alive today but how long do I have to repay you for sorting out my past? I’ve told you enough times I’m not lying to Anya, I don’t think it’s a good idea her working here, and I can’t believe you’d let someone like Ricky near your daughter."

"Ricky isn’t defiant like you Johnny and maybe I was wrong and you can’t handle my daughter, you don’t want to lie so here’s your way out."

"Damn it Carlos why do you have to make things so awkward."

"Because I’m the Boss and it’s what I do." Carlos smirked.

"I’m not interviewing her."

"Fine," Carlos pressed another button on the phone "Ricky don’t worry about the interview."

Carlos got up and went into the hall, Johnny followed.

"Hello pumpkin, I hear you’re looking to apply for the secretary work?"

"Yes."

"Good then you’re hired."

"Really? You’re sure?" I said suprised.

"I don’t need to interview you you’re my daughter, I should have thought of this sooner."

"Great when do I start?"

"Monday morning 8:30am, anymore questions?"

"What hours do I work?"

"Monday - Thursday 8:30am - 5:00pm and Fridays 8:30am - 4:00pm"

"What should I wear?"

"Anything you like."

"Brilliant, thank you so much." I got up and gave my father a big hug.

Later that night:

I suddenly woke up jumping, I must have nodded of on the bed, I had such a horrid nightmare, I got up and ran down stairs.
As I got down the stairs I saw Johnny stood in the living room.
I ran up behind him and wrapped my arms around him.

"Johnny, I just had the worst nightmare, it was horrid, I dreamt that you….You were…I was so scared Johnny, the anger in your eyes, you threw me on a bed and were gonna lash me with your belt, it was….Oh it was so horrible it felt so real."

Johnny stood frozen, the colour in his cheeks slowly disappeared as if he had seen a ghost.

"Johnny?, Say something, Johnny, are you ok?"

"I don’t feel well."

"I just stood holding him, do you need me to get you anything? Maybe we should sit down."

"I think I’ll just go and have a lay down."

"Johnny" I called to him as he walked away.

He walked away without saying a word or looking at me.


A couple of hours later I went upstairs to check how Johnny was feeling.

"Hey, you feeling any better?"

"Not really." He said.

"You know, I know you would never hurt me, I trust you Johnny, and it was just a nightmare."

"Anya, I’m tired, I just want to get some sleep, come to bed."

"No, I can’t go back to sleep just yet I don’t want that nightmare to come back."

Johnny smiled at me nervously.

"Look get some rest Johnny, you’ve been working so hard recently you’re probably just run down. Shout me if you need anything ok?"


I went downstairs and decided to watch some T.V. I must have drifted off to sleep.

There was a woman, she looked like a cheap hooker, Johnny was laughing with her and I was shouting at both of them, I was really angry, the woman who looked like a cheap hooker slapped me round the face, and Johnny was laughing. Then I was in another room, Johnny came up behind me he turned me round and pushed me up against the wall he put his hands round my neck…….

I’d fell off the sofa, waking myself with my screams, I ran upstairs crying. I stared over Johnny while he slept wondering why I kept having these images of us.

"Johnny?" I quivered

"Hmmm?" He said sleeping

"I had another nightmare."

"Ahuh" He replied still sleeping.

I climbed into bed and just stared at Johnny while he slept and I eventually fell asleep myself.


In the morning Johnny rolled over and looked at me.

"Anya?"

"Mmm" I replied staring at the ceiling.

"Are you ok?"

"I had another nightmare."

"Another nightmare, what was it?" He asked panicked

"I don’t want to talk about it, I don’t even want to think about it again it was horrible."


"It was me again wasn’t it?"

"Are you feeling better?" I asked

"Don’t change the subject Anya."

"I’m not talking about it Johnny."

He leaned over me

"I don’t want you to be scared of me Anya."

"I’m not scared of you Johnny, I told you last night I trust you."

He gazed at me looking sorrowful. I felt this tingle through my whole body, I felt drawn to him, I gazed into his eyes.

"Johnny." I said softly.

He leaned in to kiss me…

"Anyanka?" My father called up the stairs.

"Yeah?" I called back.

"You still in bed?"

"I’ll be down in a minute Papa."

"Where’s Johnny?"

"In the Shower" I bit my bottom lip and smiled at Johnny.

He rolled his eyes and shook his head, he got up and headed to the bathroom. I quickly put my dressing gown on and went downstairs.

"Morning Papa, you want a coffee?" I grinned.

"You look happy this morning pumpkin."

I just smiled at him.

"So what brings you round here Papa?"

"Do I need a reason to visit my daughter?" He smiled

"No, but while you’re here I want to talk to you. It’s about Johnny."

"Oh?" My father replied looking over my shoulder.

"Morning." Johnny said from behind me.

"Morning." I smiled hoping he hadn’t heard me.

"Johnny can you finish up making the coffee’s for me and Papa, I just need to go over some things with him in the study."

"Its Saturday Anya" Johnny replied.

"Its ok it’ll only take a few minutes, we’ll be in the living room in a second ok."

"Fine." He huffed.

I stood behind the desk in the study I paced a little and then turned to my father.

"Is everything ok Anya?" My father asked concerned.

"Yes…..Well no not really, its Johnny. I….

There was a knock on the door.

"Yes" I said nervously.

"Coffee’s done." Johnny called through the door.

"Ok" I replied.

 "Look I can’t talk to you about this with him here Papa can we go out to lunch today?"

"Has he done something to hurt you Anya?"

"Please Daddy?" I begged.

"I have a meeting soon, and I can’t cancel."

"It’s Saturday, please Daddy," I pleaded

"If he’s hurt you Anya I swear I’ll……Carlos growled loudly.

"Papa!" I snapped

"Ok lunch 1pm."

"Ok thank you."





We went through into the living room and I talked about how I was looking forward to my new secretary job working with Papa, Johnny and my father swapped glances at one another, like they were talking with there eyes but I decided to ignore it.

"Right I best get off pumpkin, I’ll see you at 1pm."

"Ok see you soon Daddy."

And he left.

"I thought you said you were staying in today Anya?"

"Well I was going to but with you not feeling well I thought I’d get out the way so you can have the house to yourself and relax."

"I can relax just fine with you here Anya."

"I’m only going to lunch with my father Johnny, Geesh."

"You’re a crap liar Anya."

"What? I’m not lying, I’m going for lunch with my father."

"Setting you up with Ricky is he?" Johnny spat

"What, who’s Ricky?"

"Oh like you don’t know he said grumpily."


"Look Johnny I don’t know what your problem is I‘m with you, and I don’t know anyone called Ricky, I’m going for lunch with my father and that’s all, it’s just me and him, father and daughter, I want to talk about work ok?"

"Whatever Anya."


"I’m not listening to this Johnny, I’m off to get ready." I stormed out the room.

I’d just got dressed and Johnny walked into the bedroom.

"Anya, I’m sorry, I didn’t mean to snap at you."

"Just forget it." I said sighing.

"No, I won’t, I shouldn’t keep having a go at you, im just exhausted and I wanted to spend the day together, I’m always working and you’re always stuck at home cleaning and stuff."

"Well I have a job now Johnny so things will get better and easier for you since I will be taking some of the duties off you."

"Yeah I know, so can we do something today?"

"Well Papa does have a meeting today, I’ll send him a message and tell him we’ll discuss it Monday."

"Ok great, so what would you like to do today?" He asked looking releaved.

"Well I’d of thought you had plans since you wanted us to spend the day together."


"How about we go for a picnic at lunch then clothes shopping so you can buy yourself a nice outfit for the club tonight?"

"Really you mean it Johnny? Every time we make plans to go clubbing something comes up."

"It’ll be fine trust me."

"Great I’ll go get some lunch together then."

"Tell you what I’ll do the lunch and you send Carlos that message."

"Ok then, I’ll get right on it."

"Hey Anya," Johnny shouted up the stairs

"Yeah."

"We’ll need groceries too, we’re nearly out of everything."

"Ah damn it, sorry I’ve been really sidetracked with looking for work."

"Don’t worry we can pick some stuff up when we’re out."

I sent the message to my Father and headed downstairs.

"You ready?" Johnny said waiting in the hall

"Yep."



Later

"You really should get out more Anya."

"What do you mean?"

"You’ve got your car sat in garage gathering dust all you do is sit at home and clean, you should get out more get around town meet people."

"I do come into town." I said defencivly

"Not on your own the only time you leave the house is if me or Carlos is with you."

"I went out yesterday alone I came for the secretry job remember and I’d of gone out alone today for lunch to meet Papa."

"You need more than me and Carlos Anya, you need friends."

"I have a friend."

"Really, Who?"

"Dr Jacobs."

"The guy from the Hospital?"

"Yeah."

"He’s not a friend he’s a professional doing his job, why are you still speaking to him anyway."

"It’s called after care Johnny."

"Have you told him about your nightmares?"

"No, why do you think I should?"

"No, just get out more and make some proper friends ok."

"What about my friends from before?"

"That’s what I mean you don’t leave the house, you need to make friends."

"Maybe I should go back to art class in the evenings, im sure I must have had friends there."

"You never mentioned any but yeah it will help with you getting out."

"Ok when we get home I’ll have a look online see if there are any spaces left."

"So are you going to tell me about your nightmare last night?"


"No!"

"Why, you told me the first one."

"Why do you keep bringing it up?"

"Because I want to know."

"I don’t want to think about it Johnny, please let’s not ruin our day."

"Fine whatever, shall we do grocery shopping first or clothes?"

"Groceries as I may take some time choosing an outfit, I want to look good." I smiled

"Meh you could walk around in a potatoe sack and still look good." He laughed

I blushed and playfully slapped him. We went and got some groceries and headed to a clothes Boutique

"Right you wait here I’ll try some outfits on and show you and tell me what you think ok?"

"Ok." He laughed.

Johnny said he liked everything I choose, I assumed this is just a typical male agreeing so he’d get out the shop quicker, so I bought a couple of outfits and we went home.

 "I’m going to chuck a salad together for tea, I don’t want anything to heavy since we’re going to be dancing away tonight and we had a big lunch." I said as we got in the house.

"Ok I’ll get in the shower and get ready."

After tea I went upstairs to get showered and changed I tried on several outfits and finally decided on one, when I came downstairs Johnny looked annoyed.

"Everything ok?" I asked.

Johnny looked at me in amazement.

"Anya, you look, wow your on fire girl."

"Thanks" I blushed

 "I’m sorry, I know this isn’t the first time Anya but I have to go out, one of the guys vans has broken down and he’s stranded I’m really sorry."

"Oh, will it take long?" I said disappointedly.

"No it should only take about an hour, why don’t you go and I’ll meet you there?"

"I don’t know, its ok Johnny you go and I’ll stay home and watch a movie or something."

"No way, Anya you look amazing, you can’t stay in, come on I’ll meet you there I promise."










At The Club


I’d been dancing away at the club for about 2 hours and there was still no sign of Johnny, I checked my cell to see if he’d called or messaged but there was nothing.

"Hey gorgous" A voice said from behind me.

I turned around and there were 2 rough looking guys staring me up and down.

"Hi." I said nervously.

"You wanna dance gorgeous?" One of them said.

"No but thank you, I’m waiting for someone."

"You look like you’ve been stood up to me, come on lets get a drink."

"No thank you, I don’t even know you."

"Oh yeah sorry, my names Ricky and this here is Joel."

"Hey." Joel smiled.

"Hi" I smiled back.

"So what’s your name?" Ricky asked.

"Anya." I replied.

"Sweet name, so come on let us buy you a drink."

I thought maybe I should have a drink with them after all Johnny did say I should make some friends but then I thought to myself I don’t quite think this is what he meant.

"I really appreciate the offer, but I’ve said no, now please leave me alone."

Ricky turned angry, angry like Johnny was in my nightmares.

"What, we not good enough for you? You stuck up little bitch." He spat.

"Hey, there is no need for that, I’ve told you I’m meeting someone." I shouted back at him.

"Ricky leave it man, she said no." Joel said all mellow.

"Shut it Joel, I'm going to teach this whore what’s she’s missing."

Ricky grabbed hold of my arm and pulled me towards him I was struggling and shouting but the music was so loud no-one seemed to notice. Ricky was pushing his face to mine, Joel was shouting at Ricky to pack it up. Then I heard Johnny.

"What the fuck are you playing at?" Johnny shouted at Ricky.

"Woah woah Johnny I’m just having some fun with this whore its all good". Ricky replied.

Johnny punched Ricky in the face.

"What the fuck was that for?" Ricky snapped.

"What would Carlos do to you?" Johnny spat.

"What, I’m just having some fun Johnny."

"With Carlos’s daughter and my girlfriend?"

"This bitch is his daughter?"

Johnny punched him again

"Fuck sake Johnny." Ricky held his face.

"I was trying to stop him Johnny." Joel added.

Johnny put his arm around me and we started to walk away.

"Johnny." Ricky called.

Johnny turned round and Ricky punched him in the face catching my jaw, I stumbled side ways and Johnny took one look at me and flew for Ricky, before I knew it Johnny and Ricky were in a full on brawl I was shouting at them to stop but either they didn’t care or couldn’t hear me.

Joel pulled out his cell and called someone he told them to hurry, I started to run towards a bouncer when my father came rushing in and grabbed me.

"Where’s Johnny?" He said all out of breath.

"Over there." I pointed.

My father rushed over to where Johnny and Ricky were fighting, I ran towards the bouncer and told him what had happened, and the bouncer looked over my shoulder and said it’s under control. I looked round to see my dad with Ricky pinned up against the wall growling abuse at him and Johnny rubbing blood away from his lip, he looked over to me and I stormed out of the club.

"Anya!" Johnny shouted after me.

"I’m going home Johnny." I said stomping up the street.

"Wait, please." Johnny called.

He ran up behind me and turned me around.

"Look at me will you." he gasped.

I couldn’t look at him, I looked to the side as tears started to fill my eyes.

"Are you ok? Come on come back inside, it’s freezing out here."

"No I’m going home."

"Come on we haven’t had a drink or dance yet."

"No!"

"Anya I promised you, come inside please" He begged.

"One drink, then I’m going home." I sulked.

"Ok fine."

When we got back into the club my father, Joel and Ricky were round one of the tables.


"Anya come here" my father called.

Joel looked really nervous and Ricky had a huge black eye, Johnny must have a good punch on him. I headed towards the table reluctantly.

"Joel was just telling me that this idiot here was giving you some hassle."

Joel gulped and Ricky lowered his head.

"It's fine Papa, Johnny sorted it."

"Come closer Anya." My father said.

"What?" I said worried.

"Let me look at your face."

"I put my hand over where Ricky had caught me with his punch for Johnny."

"Its fine Papa, it wasn’t meant for me, it was an accident."

"Anyanka!" my father snapped.

I moved closer to him so he could see the bruising that was starting to come out. Carlos grabbed the back of Ricky’s hair.


"You did that to my daughter?" he yelled.

"I didn’t mean to I…"

My father bashed Ricky's face into the table. I scrunched my face up feeling his pain. I looked round to see who was staring at us, everyone looked away scared even the bouncers didn’t intervein.

"I’m going back to the bar Papa, Johnny’s waiting for me." I said nervously.

"Wait" my father demanded. "Don’t you have something to say Ricky?"

"I’m sorry for giving you shit Anya, it will never happen again."

"Damn right it won’t, and don’t use curse words at my daughter." Carlos spat slapping Ricky round the back of the head.

My father got up like he’d just finished in a meeting he turned to Joel.

"You did right calling me Joel, even though you probably feel guilty for what’s happened to Ricky you did the right thing. Ricky come with me you son of a bitch."

I put my hand on my fathers arm.

"Daddy, please don’t hurt Ricky anymore than you have done."

"But he…."

"Promise daddy."


"I promise I won’t hurt him anymore."

"Take him to the hospital Papa."

"You should think yourself lucky Ricky my daughter just saved your life, Joel come on we’ll take him to the hospital."



I headed over to the bar and sat down.

"What the hell just happened Johnny?"

"What?" he said looking confussed.

"Some guy grabs me, you lay into him, and his mate calls my father who then threatens to kill him, then smashes his face into the table and not 1 person calls the cops and no bouncers batter an eyelid. What’s the deal?"

"Um…No-one will dare mess with me and Carlos….."

"Don’t point out the obvious Johnny."

"Hey lets go dance." Johnny said changing the subject.

"Are you serious?"

"Yeah come on dance all those frustrations out," Johnny dragged me to the dance floor.

While I was dancing I kept thinking about why no-one got involved, nobody tried to stop Johnny or my father, what were they some big gansters or mafia?

"Mafia?" I said while dancing.

"What" Johnny replied.

"Oh nothing, so how did that creep Ricky know you?"

"He works with us."

"Seriously?"

"Yeah, he’s an idiot but he is a hard worker."

"And what is it you do there again?"

"Me, I make sure everyone is happy." He smiled.

"What’s the bussiness about?"

"Are we here to have fun or talk about work?"

"Sorry." I said.

"Let’s get another drink." Johnny said.

"It’s been a long night Johnny, I’m tired, let’s just go home so I can get some ice on my face."

"Hey are you ok?" He asked concerned.

"Yeah I’m just in shock I guess."


We got home and I got an ice pack out the freezer I headed upstairs and stared into the mirror. Johnny walked into the bedroom.

"You were really quiet on the drive home." He said.

"Sorry, I’m just really tired."

"Maybe one day we’ll get a chace to go out without any drama happening." He laughed.

"Yeah maybe." I said. I put my hand to my jaw again, just staring into the mirror.

"Come here, let me look at that." Johnny put his hand on my face, he was so gentle, and I felt tingles over my whole body again.

"It’s gonna bruise but im sure it will be ok."

"Yeah, I’m lucky he didn’t break it."

"I’d of broken him if he had."

"I think you broke his nose and you gave him a good black eye." I smiled

"Yeah well he deserved it." Johnny said placing a gentle kiss on my neck.

He turned me round to face him we gazed into each others eyes.

"I’m sorry I was late Anya, if I’d of been there earlier none of this would of happened."

"Do you think Ricky will be ok?"

"Why do you care?"

"Didn’t you see my father smash his face into the table Johnny?"

"Ha, that’s nothing."

"What do you mean?"

"Don’t worry Anya, I’m sure everything will be ok."

"But what if…."

Johnny leaned into me and pressed his lips against mine, my body tingled all over again. Our tongues explored each others mouths, he carried me to the bed he climed onto me and he gently kissed my bruised jaw moving to my neck, I felt light headed with joy.

He looked at me again.

"Are you ok with this?" He whispered.

I nodded to him and smiled.

Johnny gave me gentle kisses all over my body, his bristle tickled my stomach he looked up at me again to make sure I was ok then he kissed me more going lower.


My cell started ringing on the bedside. I picked it up to look at the caller ID Papa.

"Leave it Johnny" whispered between kisses.

"I slowly sat up and answered"

Johnny resumed laying down position next me.

"Hello," I said slightly flustered

"Are you ok pumpkin?" Carlos said.

"Yeah, I’m fine."

"We’ve just got out the hospital with Ricky he’s got a few bruised ribs, broken nose, black eyes a bit more bruising but he’ll be fine."

"Ok."

"Is Johnny with you?"


"Yeah were at home."

"Ok great, well I have a busy day tomorrow so I’ll give you a call at some point to check in on you and I’ll see you Monday ok."

"Alright, night Papa, thanks for letting me know."

"Good night."

I put the phone down.

"Everything ok?" Johnny asked.

"What, urm yeah everything’s fine, Papa was just letting me know he’s just got back from taking Ricky to hospital, you did quite a bit of damage to him Johnny, but he’ll be ok."

"Oh right, well I go downstairs and watch some T.V and let you get some sleep."

"No wait, please stay here with me Johnny."

He held me close as i fell to sleep.

Who You Are Chapter 4

Chapter 4

Arguments & Decisions

When Johnny woke up all stiff the next morning from sleeping on the sofa, he thought to himself, shower, and tell Carlos I’m out of this mess and leave.

 Shortly later Carlos arrived and they went into the study to talk.

 When I woke up the next morning, I wondered if Johnny worked or if I would normally cook him some breakfast in the mornings. As I got up I could hear voice’s downstairs, Johnny must be already up I thought to myself, I headed downstairs. To my surprise Johnny and Carlos my father, seemed to be having a heated discussion, I moved into the door way so they could see me.

“Morning” I said to them.

“Good morning pumpkin, I have your allowance here, 2 weeks worth like you asked me for.”

“I did” I said puzzled.

“Yes angel, you said you and Johnny were going shopping and then lunch.”

Johnny gave Carlos a look that could kill.

“Oh right, when did I say that?” I asked.

“Last week sweetheart” Carlos replied.

“I’m sorry Anya, I don’t think I can do today, I have a busy day.” Johnny said turning around to look at me.

“Anya!” Johnny yelled looking uncomfortable.

“What? What is it?” I said patting my hair and feeling my face for zits.

Johnny quickly turned his back to me he looked like he was blushing.

“Your…Your not dressed.” he said nervously.

“Oh” I said looking down at myself, I had my Bra and pants on. I thought he’d be used to seeing me in the mornings.

Carlos chuckled.

I didn’t see what was so amusing, I went upstairs and got into the shower. After I got dressed, I went back downstairs and Johnny was still talking to my father, they must have heard me because they stopped talking suddenly.

“So what are you doing today Carlos?” I asked.

“Carlos?” My father replied with a look of upset on his face.

“You’ve always called me Daddy or Papa, Anyanka.”

“Oh I’m sorry, this is still very weird for me, and I didn’t mean to upset you Papa.”

“I’m sorry Anyanka, it’s hard for all of us, don’t worry pumpkin, things will get easier.” he replied.

“Today my angel, I am going to attend several boring meetings and hopefully go home and relax.”

“And your working today Johnny?” I asked him.

Carlos cleared his throat.

“Ahem, no he is going with you shopping like you both planned last week, I’m giving him time off since you need him right now.” Carlos sounded like he was giving an order.

“No it’s ok if Johnny has a lot to do I can just stay home.”

“Nonsense, you’ve been so excited about this shopping trip, he’s always working to hard, you said you were going to cut his rags up and get him a makeover.” Carlos said smarmily looking over to Johnny.

“Anya, can I have a moment with Carlos alone please?” Johnny asked looking at Carlos with anger in his eyes.

“Sure, I’ll go get some breakfast, I’ll be in the kitchen.” I replied.



“What the hell is your game Carlos, I told you earlier, no more of this pretending from me.” Johnny snapped.

“You agreed Johnny” He spat back at him.

“No, that’s the thing, I agreed to get your daughter as long as no-one got hurt.”

“Who’s hurting Johnny? Carlos asked smugly.”

“Anya will be when she finds out I’m not who she’s been told I am.”

“ Johnny I really don’t know what your problem is, just let her take you shopping and have lunch.”

“Then what Carlos? What about when she wants to….you know….be more serious?”

“Did you’re mommy not give you the talk of the bird’s & bee’s Johnny?” Carlos said mockingly.

“Damn it Carlos! You know exactly what I mean!”

Carlos looked down at his watch.

“Look at the time, I have to be in a meeting, I’m sure you’ll figure something out Johnny, in the mean time enjoy your makeover and Lunch, you can take the car that’s in the garage.” Carlos winked and left.


I headed back to the study, remembering I’d not offered anyone else breakfast, I heard a loud thud and a kind of growl noise. Johnny had hit his fists down on the desk and he looked really pissed off.

“Johnny?” I approached him.

He stood up straight, looking angry and upset.

“What’s happened?”

“It’s nothing, let’s just go downtown.”

“Did Car..I mean Papa upset you?”

“You could say that, don’t worry Anya, and let’s just go ok.” He snapped.

“We don‘t have to go,” I said sheepishly.

“I’m sorry, it’s not your fault. Let‘s just go shopping.”

We drove downtown, in silence.

“So where do you want to go?” Johnny asked me once we got into town.

“I don’t know what did we have planned?”

“To make over me, right”

“Really?” But I like what you’re wearing”

He smiled at me.

“Well lets just go looking round some shops, you might find something for yourself. I also could do with a hair cut.” He said.

We went to the local salon first, the stylist’s couldn’t wait to get their hands on Johnny, but I told them he has to pick his own clothes and cut. I got myself a couple of outfits too.

Are you hungry? Johnny asked me as we left the Salon.

“Yeah I only had a juice earlier, I was coming to ask you if you wanted breakfast when I came back to the study”

“Let’s put our bags in the boot of the car and then we’ll go get some food, what do you fancy?”

“Sorry?”

“To eat, what do you want to eat?”

“Oh, I don’t know surprise me.” I smiled.

As our table was cleared, I looked at Johnny and said,

“Do you and Papa argue often?”

“What?” He said nearly choking on his pasta.

I looked down, “I heard you both arguing when I woke up, and then again when you asked me to go to the kitchen.”

“What did you hear?” he asked looking worried.

“Just loud voices when I woke and then, you shouting when I was in the kitchen.”

“Did you hear what we were shouting about?” He looked angry again.

“I’m not a kid Johnny, I don’t eavesdrop, and you asked me to leave the room so I stayed out the way.” I snapped at him.

“Ok, I’m sorry.” He said.

“So do you?” I asked again.

“Yeah…..No…..Sometimes I guess.” He replied.

“You mean more so since….Since I lost my memory?” I bit down on my bottom lip.

“It’s not your fault Anya”

“I know, I just….Oh I don’t know. My eyes glazed and red hot tears burned my eyes.

He got out of his seat and pulled me into an embrace.

“What did I say to you last night? I hate to see you cry….”

“No you didn’t” I said, tears rolling down my cheek.

“Huh?”

“You didn’t say that, you said you hate to see girls cry.”

“Well it’s the same thing isn‘t it?”

“I guess.” I pulled away from him.

“Maybe we should go home, I’m kinda tired.” I turned to walk away.

“Anya….” Johnny said.

“Yeah?”

“I’m sorry.” He clenched his hands like his palms were sweating.

I looked into his eyes. “For what?” I said.

“I…Well…Um, I want to tell you, well I mean Carlos your Papa he.”

“What? Is something wrong Johnny?”

“Yes…..No, he just makes me do things I don’t want to do, with work ya know, so we end up arguing about it.” He sighed.

“Well, I’m sure all bosses are pushy right?” I smiled.

“Yeah I suppose”

“Tell you what, I’ll tell him to go easier on you, ok?” I grinned at him.

Ha-ha, no it’s fine I’m sure we will work something out.

“Come on, let’s go home.”



As I walked around the house, I noticed there were no photo’s hanging up, any family pictures anything of me and Johnny, I started looking through draws and rummaging about, Johnny came into the bedroom.


“Hey I…..urm what are you doing?” He asked.

“Johnny, you startled me.” I said gasping.

“What are you doing Anyanka?” He repeated.

“I’m looking for memorabilia.”

“Why?”

“I thought it might help me get my memory back, you know looking back.”

“Well you might as well stop looking, you won’t find anything.” He snapped.

“ Johnny, I’ve looked all round the walls in this house, there are no photo’s anywhere.” I snapped back at him.

“Hey watch your tone.”

Watch my tone? That’s all you have to say? Do you know what I’m going through right now., or how scary it is? Why isn’t there any photo’s Johnny? I screamed at him.

“Prom, picnic’s, family?” I continued.

“Why don’t you ask Daddy, I’m done with this, I’m out of here! He shouted.

Johnny stormed out and I heard him slam the front door, and screech off in his car, I fell to the floor in tears.





I didn’t know what to do I‘d been laid on the floor crying for a while, I shouldn’t have shouted at him, it wasn’t his fault. I decided to call my father.

“Daddy?”

“Hey pumpkin, did you and Johnny have a nice day?”

“Sort of…..No.” I burst into tears again.

“Anya, what’s happened, are you ok?”

“No” I said sobbing down the phone.

“Where are you?”

“At home.”

“Ok I’m coming over, just hang on sweetheart.”

Carlos arrived 15 minutes later, he rushed through the door, shouting my name.

“Anyanka, what’s happened? Where’s Johnny?”

“I don’t know he left, we had a row.”  I sobbed.

“What do you mean left, what did you row about?”

“I was going through all the draws looking for memorabilia, there’s no photo’s here of my life, or of me and Johnny, I shouted at him asking why I have no photo’s anywhere. He then shouted at me and said I should ask you, and he said he was done with this and he was out of here so he sped off in his car.” I cried so hard.

“Shh sweetheart, it will be ok, you’ve not been here long, and all your pictures are gone because of a house fire, Johnny finds it hard to deal with”

“Well why couldn’t Johnny tell me that? Instead of shouting at me to ask you? Now’s he’s left me and I’m alone in my house that I don’t know and…” I was crying so much I thought I was gonna be sick.

“Come on sweetheart, you can take new pictures  and I’m sure Johnny will be back he’s probably gone to let steam off.”

“I don’t blame him for leaving, this is so hard not knowing and we’ve been together for years and I don’t know him, he must hate me, he’s…he’s better off without me.”

“He’ll come back Anaya I promise.”

“How do you know?”

“Because I know Johnny, just give him some time ok, like you said it’s hard for us all.”

“Ok, let me know if you hear from him.”

“Ok sweetheart do you want me to stay?”

“No, I’ll call you later.”




Johnny zoomed around downtown and then finally pulled over down at the beach.  He stood staring out at the sea.

“What the hell did you do this time Johnny” he said to himself

"You’ve really screwed up this time, way to go." He chastised himself.

His cell phone started ringing, he looked at the caller ID, Carlos.

“What” Johnny said answering.

“Where are you?” Carlos asked.

“What do you want Carlos?”

“You made my daughter cry, what’s your game?”

“MY GAME? This is all your doing Carlos, I’m through will this, I told her I’m done.”

“Funny that, because someone was in the study this morning complaining about Anyanka getting hurt, and the funny thing is he looked just like you. But it couldn’t of been because she‘s at home crying for you.”

“Well its better I get out now before she does remember.”

“I don’t think so” a voice said from behind him.

Johnny quickly turned around.

“Carlos”

“Ha-ha, trackers are a good investment.”

“You son of a….”

“Now now Johnny, respect your father in law”

“You’re not my father in Law” Johnny snapped.

“Listen to me Johnny, I made a promise to my daughter and you’re not going to make me a bad father are you?”

“I don’t need to do anything, your doing a good job of it on your own.”

“Ah yes Johnny, but I didn’t do this on my own did I? Who was it that tracked my daughter down and learned about her for 4 months and bought her too me?”

Johnny lowered his head in shame.

“Now you’re going to go back to the house and apologise to my daughter, and you’re going to stay with her, do you understand?”

“No I’m not Carlos, I don‘t want any part in this I‘m not going to hurt Anya anymore than I already have.” Johnny said nervously.

“You stupid boy, what’s the matter with you, you can have anything you want while your with her, all expenses paid remember.” Carlos Snapped.

“I said NO Carlos” Johnny gulped.

“She asked me today if we as in me and you argue a lot as she heard us shouting, she said she didn’t hear anything said, so I told her we disagree over work, she offered to tell you to lighten up on me, How do you think that makes me feel Carlos? Anya will do anything for me and I sit by living a lie with dirty money.” Johnny had tears in his eyes.

“Are you crying Johnny?” Carlos Smirked.

“Oh my goodness, I see what’s going on here, you’re falling for her, you’ve been following her and then living with her for 4 months, sat by her bedside while she slept in hospital. Don’t you see Johnny? You can make this work, this is brilliant! Carlos chuckled.

“No Carlos, it isn’t brilliant, she hated me when I lived there, and she’s gonna hate me even more when she finds out the truth. I mean it I’m out.”

“No-one is ever out Johnny when they’ve been in, it’s in or dead!”

“Then I guess I’m dead.”


“I’m willing to give you a second chance Johnny, I like you, you’d be good for my daughter, and if you don’t look after her you’ll be dead and I’ll be forced to set her up with Ricky or Joel so I can keep her.”

Thoughts ran through Johnny’s head, I’m a dead man, Ricky or Joel with Anya……But the lies, she’ll hate me if she finds out, I don’t want to loose her I don’t want to lie to her.

“I’m not lying anymore Carlos”

“What do you mean?”

“If I stay, we tell her she was bought here for a better life. She needs the truth, I never should have gone along with this plan Carlos, and we should have done what I said before we should have gone to her and told her she can live with you.”

“Johnny what’s happened to you? You used to be my toughest man.” Carlos chuckled.

“I’m not going to live your lies Carlos.”

“What about when she asks why you lied to her.”

Johnny lowered his head in shame.

“Come on Johnny, just do what you said, play the boyfriend, take it easy she will fall for you because she thinks she is already supposed to love you.”

“You have to tell her she grew up with her mother and you bought her to live with you for a better life.” Johnny sighed.

“Ok, but in time, I’ll tell her but give me a few weeks to sort things.”

“Why should I believe you Carlos.”

Because I love my daughter and I want her to be happy, she is hurting so much now Johnny she wants you.

Carlos your believing your own lies here, she doesn’t want me she doesn’t even know me, she wants her memory back.

“She will want you Johnny just give her time, I know you want its written all over you, so have her. I can’t loose her again Johnny, please don’t do this to me.” Carlos pleaded.

“I don’t know, I don’t think I can do this Carlos, I….I think its better this way, just let me go, you even said before your plans never fail, you’ll figure something out.”

“No Johnny, if you don’t go back then it’s all over for you, am I clear?”

“Yeah you’re clear, but I’m not lying anymore.” Johnny said angrily.